Im Jessi. Married, Mother, and Maker of things from good food, to great stories that rose out of grave pain. I’m living a vastly different reality today than I once was. I think you’ll come to love that, because it means that the freedom which is available to me is available for you too. I’m lit up to show you what is possible when you come into contact with what is True about you.

This was me before:

Crippled internally with depression, OCD, and 3 additional psychiatric diagnosis' with an equal number of pharmaceuticals to manage them all.

Scared of my body and brain, with its seemingly random chemical expressions that had no rhyme reason or especially cure.

Scared of God, and the terrifying chasm that existed between the beliefs of my heart and the beliefs I was told I had to adopt… or else.

Scared of life, after losing many people I loved and experiencing the kind of grief I thought might kill me. I felt stuck in a reality of torment that I wasn't sure would ever end.

On the outside I looked like sunshine. I did always feel that impulse of hope and positivity beaming through, despite how else I felt inside. It's just that the "how else" eventually started to eclipse the light and I didn't know if or how I could make my way back into the sun.

It's when the suffering really reached its “I can handle this” peak, that I fully surrendered to answers finding ME. I clung to the knowing that there was something more available. And WOW was that a good gamble to take. Resources flooded in and I heeded the Universes call. It was then that my internal (and therefore external) experience of life began to shift in ways that were better than I could have asked for or even imagined.

Today - I trust my brain and body. I am confident that every part of me - no matter how cringe (as my 8 year old has been known to describe me) - makes complete sense. I have a relationship with my mind that heals me. I can hold joy, pain and everything in between with more peace, compassion, and grace than I ever have. I am medication free, and have adopted an entirely new paradigm about mental health that is both empowering and sensible. I have encountered the Divine in a way that continually frees me, and I feel safe to live, dream, love and play in this world.

Healing is so much more than clearing our trauma. It’s about expanding into joy, pleasure, creativity, peace, ease, and freedom. What is available to me is available to you. I’ts my literal heart and joy to be here to tell you this, until you know it for yourself. xo, Jessi